it's going to be a Holiday Year...
it's going to be a holiday year! hmm.. it isn't a very good thing. coz schoolwork goes on as per normal.. just that there will lots and lots of birthday coming up.. and confirm cannot settle my heart down to study de. im by nature, hong sim~. tsk..
haha, anyway... yesterday was the celebration for both Dawn and Serene. not exactly very close to them but im invited to both parties! heh.
actually i love parties, a time when i can talk as loudly as i wish and no one is going to stop me! hahah.. but actually i wasn't supposed to attend both because mummy said no. i was needed at home to help out with the spring cleaning. i didnt argue much la.. coz i thot what she said was quite true.. plus i not very close to the 2 of them. if it is any one of u i will fight my way there mann. hhahaa.. finally i thot i will go for dawn's one la. at least it is earlier and attend one means i won't be home late. but in then end... i went for serene's one too. hahah, but i don't regret it la. coz like what eib said,"it's the least i could do." hahha.. *psst: your english is good mann*
since only the few of you all are going to read this blog, haha.. eib, your birthday party was AWESOME. really. well, at least that is how i feel la. it was more happening. hahaha... i donno why.. maybe i had the family ard me lo. but your one was good mann. and your food is yummilicious! so far, your party food is ranked... number ONE! haha..
as for Serene's party.. it was a very warm one. not as in physically warm la, but i felt touched by what roseline and sharon said. nothing much, but thot it was very nice to hear appreciations on your big day. and could tell that serene was very happy. :) well, how else can u feel on your day? hahaha...
another thing i found out was... oh mann, celine's family is soooooooo.... welcoming!! hao ke. that is what you say in chinese. i liked all of them, except... peace. hahaha. it is cute, only when it stays away from me. ahhhaa.. the chicken wings were fabulous mann. huihui helped to fry them so she told me the recipe, next time im going to try it out. haa.
and maybe everyday i should go hang around celine's condo. wah lau~! now i understand why it is named the most expensive condominium in Singapore. it is n.i.c.e. and there is no word left to describe le. mann. her parents' bedroom had a window that falls from the ceiling right down to the floor. and her hse ceiling very high, which makes the window tall. and the scenery is... sigh. what else can i say? celine, give thanks mann. one thing is that maybe xx cannot stay there... he won't dare to go near the window. heh.
ending note... i hope there won't be anymore birthdays coming up till April... let me study!!
God, help!!
Monday, January 31, 2005.1:17 PM
this blog is for you la. you must sing the title..
"Happy Birthday Eibby~"
(to the tune of the last line of the song, Happy Birthday)
hahah, crap aside.. im sorry this is such a late entry... but then again, knowing me.. i don have much time to be on the computer... and even if im free.. what would i be doing?
yes, that is right... packing.
hahahha.. recently, i picked up another habit. sleeping. hahah, tng ar, im joining you in this one. hahahha.
well, i know your birthday is like... 6 days back? yeh, the 21st.. wah, you can be named the girl that turned 21 on the 21st.. with 21 teeth... aye, crap la.
but then again... thought u shld know that me and tng were like planning your birthday.. even before our exams last year! hahahha.. then we thought it was still early. aiya, sorry lah... we don have the time keeping nature like you do. haha, but i had so many ideas pouring out of my mind... that Tng would look at me suspiciously, like i came from pluto or something..
haha, then... in the twinkling of an eye, January came!
school started... and before we knew it, you birthday was less than a week away. alamak. sorry la...
i seriously feel that we could have done a better joB... as in the surprise, but we were low on budget and running out of time! hahaha.. sorry! so when you stepped in.. and you teared, i was so shocked! coz only zee cries.. hahhaa.. but im glad you like it. sorry it has to be at my place, in my room, but zeemama wasn't exactly happy with my late home comings and bad back conditions... sorry!
i had a really great time at the BBQ.. really. although my loud voice and actions and laughter invited weird and digusted stares from you parent's friends' children. hahaha, who cares!
the food was yummilicious! im serious... it was really wonderful, maybe because of the company la... it was full attendance! hhahaha... i was so happy... and im still happy too. hahaha.. i knew we were going to stay back till quite late but didn't know it was going to be at 3am? alamak, but thank God for Fiona who drove each and every one of us home. hhah.. saved my cab fare again. God really provides...
your presents were fabulous!! wah, i really wished that my birthday is tomorrow or something... a time where i can feel that people love me! and eib, we love you!! hahhaha.. really do la. coz we are the... AWESOME 4OUR~.. hahha.
a few things to say..
1. Can we pls develop ALL the photos that we took? from past to now? coz when it comes to doing things for you.. im short of photos! and have to use that sec 2 one. hahahha..
2. I spoke to your brother!! ahhahaa... First time, althogh i wore his PE shorts before. hahha.
3. Remember that 2 years ago on the 3rd day of the Chinese New year, it was the day that the AWESOME 4OUR~ chen jun!! hahahha. so let's keep it that way eh?
4. Remember this coming V day hor~... ahahahaha. it shall be a bridge-y night with ah seah's qing ren porridge tau can and corona! ahhahaa..
okies, im penning off already.
once again, God bless you always... and love you pal.
Thursday, January 27, 2005.10:42 AM
14th to 16th January was a weekend like none other…
It was a weekend that I encountered God, a weekend that God spoke to me… in a place called the Tabernacle.
Initially, I didn’t want to go for it… because I was far away from God and it became a habit… that I didn’t want to hear from Him, hear about Him and I didn’t want to pray. hahah, in other words, it was quite a deadly attack.
But I went. I don’t regret going for it… because it restored me, restored my faith. Thank you God.
At first, I didn’t feel anything even during worship. That would always be the time when I engage with God and feel a lot of emotions… and naturally, tears will flow… but this time round, I didn’t… and I didn’t feel very good… because I wanted to feel God… I really miss that feeling.
So when the time came to enter the Tabernacle, I was thinking in the back of mind… that I will be in and out in a jiffy because there won’t be anything that I will feel and struggle coz I just can’t feel Him.
But I was wrong.
I stepped in and sat down. Then I started talking to God… and tears just started flowing. I have no idea why. Nothing was bothering me… then I realize that the presence of God was so strong that it couldn’t be helped and so I teared… it felt really good to know that God was there and God was real.
I moved on and at the Laver, where I had to do the symbolic act of washing my hands before entrance, it was said that we should sit down and ask God to sanctify us… asking Him to cleanse us of our sins and to hide His word in our heart for protection. And so I started thinking… do I have anything “major” to clean up? And then, something just flashed across my mind… something quite personal so I can’t really say it out… but it is something that I had once constantly struggled with… and so I started praying and asking God to tell me what to do… then I waited for God to tell me what to do… and then, a song just came to me…
Empower me, like a rushing river flowing to the sea. Lord send your holy spirit flowing now through me, till I’m living as a child, victorious and free, send the power of your love, empower me…
God, thank you. I learn that temptations to sin will always be a constant struggle and that whenever the situation arises, I will pray for you to empower and strengthen me.
I felt good and I moved on…
Stepped in to the inner courts and sat down at the golden lampstand. It was a place for God to answer any questions that I had or to tell me any decisions to make…
and so I asked God… “God, what do you want out of me and Melvyn?” and then I waited and waited and waited… I don’t know how long I sat down there for but God didn’t give me any answer… maybe because I wasn’t still in His presence and so I couldn’t hear what He was trying to tell me. I was very disappointed but I thought that maybe God doesn’t want to tell me the answer now because it isn’t time…
I moved on… and when I reached the altar of incense and just at the moment I sat down, my watch fell to the ground. I looked at where it was and to my greatest surprise, it snapped.
My adidas watch snapped.
Oh my God… the link fell out and the chain was disconnected from the clock face… God, are you trying to tell me something? The watch was the first birthday present from Melvyn… sigh, my heart feels so pricked… is this really what you want? Just at this moment when I feel like I really do feel for him. God, if this is really what you want, then so be it.
I decided to chuck the answer aside and continued praying. The banner that hung in front said, God is my healer… something like that… so I thought here is the place where I deal with my past hurts. But I always thought that I was very very very blessed because I haven’t really been hurt very badly in life before. And even if I had been, they had always been resolved very very quickly and I would be ok in no time. Thank God for this Joy that I experience. So I told God, “God ar, I don’t know how to pray because I think I am very happy about my life, about how you have constantly blessed it…” then I didn’t know how to pray already. Then pastor came to me and prayed for me… she said,”Ziyun, the Lord wants to tell you that He is very pleased with you…”
God, how real can you get? Thank you…
Finally, I went into the holy of holies. Sorry God but my first impression was, chey! Nothing much except for an ark in front of the room. And ppl were all resting in the room.
I sat down and didn’t know what to do… there was nothing to pray or say… so I lay down and rest. And fell asleep. And when I woke up, wau… I didn’t know I slept for so long… about an hr plus… but I didn’t experience the peace that others felt… maybe I wasn’t still.
But God, I still want to thank you for this wonderful experience. I just hope that you would continue to tell me what to do… make me the old Ziyun… you get what I mean.
Monday, January 17, 2005.7:21 PM
Happy 21st Birthday to Liying
happy birthday liying!!
hahha, although you might not get to read this, but still i will type it in in case you get to see my blog in the future.
heh. P.s.C rocks! to the max mann. hahhaa, i love the surprise that was prepared for liying, and i love liying's reaction too. she cried. awww~~~ though i didnt get to see it because zeemama chose to call me at that auspicious moment. :(
reached home at 2am.. coz we (me, jason, tng and gary) stayed behind at liying's place to look at photos. and OH MYGOD. the photos were...... sigh.. damn toot and damn peeuu. really mann, i am going to burn them away one day. goodness. hahhaa.. but then again, that was what we were made up of.. hahah.
tng came back and puked. gulped down the teh at liying's place and looked at mr Goh's video for 15 seconds and felt giddy. alamak, hope you are ok le. but then again.. mr Goh's video was... very giddy..
orite, one birthday down... and many to go!!!!!!!! ah!!!!!!!!!! money money money. hhahaha.. no la, it really warms the heart to see the reaction of the birthday peeps when they get their surprise. tng, well done. i personally feel that our birthday board was great. :) hurray!
hmm, today is thursday.. only one more day to prepare myself for the tabenacle encounter this weekend. oh no!! i hope i have enough time. and im looking forward to it.. heh, thanks mom.
and im looking forward to soccer!!!!!!!! wahhahhaha... yeah.. i hope singapore wins. :)
k, im ending off le.
till i blog again, bye!! take care~
Thursday, January 13, 2005.10:24 AM
