awaiting my recess... a time to rest.

i don't know if i am able to fulfill what i told you, it seems a little difficult now.
but you always say, "have faith."

it is always difficult to believe and trust in you and dwell in your presence when things start to crop up and not go the way i want them to...

God, how?

no wonder people always look "wah" when i tell them that i am currently an engineering student.

firstly, i am a girl.

secondly, it is d.i.f.f.i.c.u.l.t.
i know everyone will feel that whatever they are doing is difficult... fair enough, i find that mine is indeed tough.
how do the brains of those scholars work?
and what about the poly students that were directly streamed into engineering year 2?
i am puzzled. so is liting. we went into JC because we did better in secondary school... and now when everyone is in uni... hmm, they seem to have done something to their brains.. like extreme makeover or sth... why? i am really puzzled.
i guessed it is because we are taking it for granted that we are in uni... those poly students and foreign scholars really cherish this opportunity to study... esp in uni. that's why they work hard... i also want to work hard... now the next question is... where has my time gone to?
funny... i am not attached now so actually, i shld have more time to study... then where is my time? God, where?

thirdly, i am impressed with my brother. because he is a holder of a degree in the bachelor of engineering. i am very very thankful that he is around... at least he can teach me anything that i don't know... well, except chemistry. :((((((((
now comes the mao du part... he is working and hence the time he has left is mainly to rest...no time to teach me le. and he forgot some of them le. yet i am thankful that he is working because if not for him, i would not be typing away on this laptop, listening to online lectures in the comfort of my room and being able to surf the net wherever i am in the house. thank you brother. thank God for you. :) this laptop is not the most wonderful piece of equipment in this world, but i am really really really very happy to be able to own it. God, thank you.

2 more days..
to the start of my recess week.
i have big plans for myself. a time to catch up on all that i am behind in... (which is BLOODY alot) and a time to rest, play and relax.

before i end off...

tnG:

it's good to see you being able to relax although you are now in your second year. don't feel guilty that you are not doing as much as before because in the past, it was tooo much.. it wrecks your nerves eh? do just enough... but you always say, you don't know when is enough. let God tell you. :)

eiB:

heh... the other day, you were telling me about your deadlines and getting worried over them. maybe i haven't told you before, but i wanna tell you that i am always impressed and at the same time encouraged by your discipline. it is from you that i learn the reward system.. haha, as in setting a target as to what to finish then rewarding yourself with TV. (or other things) really..so Eib, relac la! you can make it wan.

fiB:

sorry! for the present... i am seriously very very very very guilty about it!! i forgot the budget.. although i set it. im sorry.. next time i make it up to you ok? and heh.. don't forget about the "live band" performance that i told you about! you will always be welcomed. :)

gals... i can't thank God enough for you. and i mean what i type.


Wednesday, February 16, 2005.10:50 PM