this is a very important entry.. no one should miss it.. especially that someone..ok? clear? now.. follow these steps very very very closely..stand up.put your hands on your waist.turn to your right, then left. do this for 5 times.next, put your hands up, and stretch yourself.breathe in, breathe out.ok, done all these?now, sit down.. take a deep breath before you proceed. (im serious)make sure you sit up right, with a good reading posture... because what you are going to read is very very very important. ok, get it?have i already said that this is a very important entry?ok ar.. important ar.. f.o.c.u.s..eileen lim yiling.you there? yes, you! happy 22nd birthday to you! haha.. oh my god.. i just turned 21 about one month ago and there you go, celebrating your 22nd birthday. woah.. haha..you know.. i was just thinking.. i knew you back in... 1997? that's almost ten yrs ago! mann.. haha.. what im going to say, maybe i have already told you many times before.. but just bear with me ok? the fact that i keep remembering it shows that it really impacted me very greatly.. hhaa..1997.. sec one.. why you don like me? HAHA.. i mean, i only know this from hero la.. though i donno the reason then, donno the reason now, and wouldn't wanna know the reason. hah, i think you have forgotten it.. thank God for your short memory. haha. (ppl always don like me at first.. WHY?? haha.. is it because i am very black.. hence look bing-chao-chao? haha.. or maybe im too noisy? no la.. cant be.. im so shy. haha.) didnt know you well.. but all i got from you is that.. you are such a quiet and shy gal.. face would turn red too. hehe.. remember how we got to know each other better? bet you forgot already. haha.. let me tell you, it was after a netball game during PE. we were in the same team.. me, you, fifi, tng, sab, fio, anna, aimee, germ, jas.. i think it is all of us.. haha, won or lost, i cant remember, but im glad that friendly game won me a fren. a good fren that is. then we formed our family.. haha, you are dada!! remember! oh!! how i miss that nick. haha.. dada.. and im your daughter. haha.. you used to call me "belle" and "mei nu" and "xiao long nu" and "beautiful" in the letters you wrote to me.. HAHA.. u so nice! but i think it is i force you wan. haha..1998.. sec two.. God brought us closer. you were always very keen to bring me to know christ.. what with all the TGIF.. and etc.. remember you and sab called me out of class one day, and passed the sinners' prayer card to me? it was a Elim Church card.. i think you cannot remember la. but everything is branded on my memory. :) and one fine day, i said that prayer. :)))))))))))) i was at home alone, eating my dinner.. porridge and got fish. as usual, i was eating and reading at the same time, and opps! got bone stuck in my throat! panic attack! oh mannnnn~ and i just wanted to say that prayer. and i said it! haha. and praise God, miraculously, i couldnt feel the bone anymore! :)))) now the more i think i about my testimony, the more miraculous it sounds to me. hah. anyway, you know who was the first person i told that i accepted Christ?.. yes, you.. eileen lim. i called you immediately. and i remember you were so happy for me. heh.1999.. sec three.. we were streamed into different classes. i remember during sec 2, we were very very very sad. and everytime we talked about streaming then, tears always welled up. the chalet was the ultimate.. (like wake) haha.. everyone cried their hearts out.. now as im typing this, im beginning to feel a little tugging at my heart again. there was one letter you wrote to me back then, saying.. "im working very hard already! but i think we won't be in the same class next year, never mind, we cry together at the chalet ok".. and that was what we did.2000.. sec four. 2001.. J1..2002.. J2..drifted apart. how sad. but now, i give thanks for that period of being apart.. coz now, getting together once again feels very very good. :) and it is as though that being apart didnt take place at all.. how wonderful.2003.. everyone was getting into uni.. and getting used to the change in lifestyles..2004..it was the new year dinner at your house that changed everything. it was the first time (in years..) that i swam at your place.. only 2 of us, about an hour before the rest of them came.. we felt worked out, haha, remember? the skin was like "emitting heat".. haha, that feeling.. haha.. then every week, i would go to your house to swim then study.. it was good. it was the smart and fit mondays.. haha. we swam, ate porridge with luncheon meat and egg, studied, took turns to nap, studied again, talked, watched the impossible-to-miss "ren wo au you".. haha, remember? had fun, loads of it.. 2005..continued to study together though not so regular.. but we even came up with the "smart and fit camps".. haha.. hols came and guess what.. we even worked togther! mann. had to see you everyday!!! hahaha... but thank God i had you at work. and our BKK trip! SO FUN!!!!!!!!! haha. and our J-story.. haha.. so glad we pulled through that, thank God we are so open with each other.. we jump over one hurdle, we go one step stronger. amazing.2006.. just started. life isnt always smooth sailing, that's why God gave us each other. ".. a shoulder to cry on.. i'll be here, a friend to rely on.."life is always unfair, but God is good. whatever we face in life, we face it with strength enough.. coz God knows how much we can take. i hope even in times of crisis or bad happenings, i can be part of your source of strength.gal, happy birthday.you are one bigggggggg part of my life. thank you for ALL that you have done in my life, keeping me company, hearing me out, crapping with me(our long tau-gay and your scissors), worrying about me.. thanks.. you have been a blessing. and let's REALLY keep this friendship going ok? coz.. i love you gal.
Friday, January 20, 2006.11:30 PM
pre-note: this entry was meant to be posted last night after coming home from bugis shopping.. but before i could post, my bro cut the connection, so i couldnt.. haha, so here it is..ahh.. just a quick one ok? haha..im supposed to type my report for the day.. then go sleep.. but i know i must say all these..and yes, this is it.. this entry is for you, eib. i know you are going through a rough patch, but trust me on this, you WILL be fine.. cannot think.. "i hope so la.." coz y? dont doubt God or He will take it away from you.. no matter how impossible anything seems, have faith. :) amen? remember the 90 yr old granny who gave ALL that she had and how God amazingly turned that into a wonderful testimony? yes.. have faith. :)this is happening to you for a reason.. or maybe many reasons. some which we will never comprehend.. but one thing we know for sure.. He means everything well.Jehovah remembers, so dont worry eib. :)and you always have us.. your "out-lets" yeh?"...knowing you can always count on me.. for sure.. that's what friends are for..." how true. ;P
Wednesday, January 18, 2006.10:19 PM
it has been raining.cold.. and windy.. and suitable for staying at home, with a cuppa coffee and a good read.not for tuitions, and camps. especially camps!heya guys, i will be off for camp from 10th jan to 13th jan. ie tmr to fri! haha. so don't miss me. i will still be contactable via my trusty handphone. ;)at first when i had to go for the training in preparation for this camp, i was rather burdened. and jittery. reason being.. i was going alone. (synonym: lone, individual, in solitary)no one from mom's tribe, no one from the PL minitry. i only heard that there were going to be ppl from ps laifun's 144, but mann, the number is 144, and how many ppl do i actually know? haha.it would have been much easier if this is a PL project, not other school.. but well, i guess God has other plans. haha. and mom, thankew for being so encouraging and affirming. :)now, im REALLY excited for the camp, but God, why the weather?? how to do absailing, flying fox and all the rope elements? not that im doing them la, but it will be such a wet blanket for the gals! :( these 2 days, rain ALL that u want but on wed to fri, give me the sun ok? a big and bright and hot one that is! hehe.and i finally told mummy about the camp and that i am unable to bring her to the doc's on thursday. all the truth, no lies. im proud of myself. :)me - mummy, i got a Bigggggggggg problem leh...mummy - what?me - i got camp leh, cannot bring you to see the doc in thursday.. how?mummy - camp important or me important?me - aiyaa.. u cannot put it like that...and u know, conversation was zeemama-style. but thank God in the end, she said it is ok.. and she will think of a way herself. not with a grudge but really sounded fine. oh mann, thank God. so.. prayer works. hehe.now, im thinking of my camp essentials.. i need to get disposables (panties).. refill my tolietries.. my contact lens stuff.. etc etc. but the rain! forces ppl to stay home. and the thought of going out.. i feel like decking myself in.. long pants, long sleeves, gloves and earmuffs. it is cold! i wonder how eib is putting up with the cold. haha.yeah! we are having mac delivery for lunch, me and my da sao. haha. i ordered a mac chicken. haha. :) yummy. and cheap.i think the fast food joints that are providing delivery are making big bucks.. with the weather like this.. but bless the riders mann. slippery roads.i wonder how fif's receeing is coming along.and tng at zoo! alamak.. how untimely. haha~. i hope she isnt drenched.next week, 16th jan, attachment begins. im with Omron Electronics. i donno what's in store, donno how much im being paid, but mann, i just wanna learn as much as i can. and have a good time. ok, God? heh..so my dears, i will be a "working adult" for 6 months.. 5 day week, 9-5.. haha. if u wanna date me, im available after 5pm k? i shld be at ubi area la, haha.. yeh, i guess that's all for this post.ruggrats is showing on HBO.. hearing alot of baby voices. haha.watch out mann. i might just blog again. hha.
Monday, January 09, 2006.2:11 PM
Friday, January 06, 2006.1:38 PM
you are looking at a new entry of zee's blog! haha.. so don say i lousy k? haha. good things must wait, hehe.i know it's 6th jan 2006 already.. but i still wanna say HAPPY NEW YEAR!! hehe. it's a brand new year! it's a brand new start, so even when things start to go a little haywire, step back, take a deep breath and.. s.m.i.l.e. : ) and all will be good.looking back at my 2005.. it is a year of growth.. many breakthroughs in life. some may be small and minor ones, but i still thank God for them.it was the year when i became single again.. single physically and mentally. and God made me a happy singleton. hehe. i always thought i needed someone by my side.. u know, the feeling where i felt that i must be attached.. if not, it's so lonely.. yah, that kind of feeling. but miraculously, i don't feel that way anymore.. i wont jump into any relationship just like i had previously.. i will take time.. and pray. u know. some things are so important, u can only leave them to God. : )it was the year when i learnt the importance of punctuality and saving from eib.i have said this umpteen times, but yes, thank you again. when u are willing, u can. nothing is impossible in this world.i am saving! i have not saved alot, but it is enough to encourage me to go on. tuition is very important! which is why for the month of dec, savings depleted at a horrible rate, coz no input!! and im so glad tuition has started, next tue is payday! wooh!for 2006..i wanna balance God and my family. i wanna serve God with all that i have and yet at the same time, i am praying that my family will come to understand why i am doing it. if i have been spending too much time out there, i will stay home whenever i can even if it means cutting down on my play. i just want them to understand that i love God and i love them too. : )i will be baptised. and i will be called joy. note i use "will".. coz im claiming all these in faith.oh.. one more thing.. haha. i wanna be more patient to the public.. esp when they are oblivious to ppl (like me) who are walking past them. i will understand that they do not have eyes on the back so they cannot see me and hence give way to me. patience zee.. patience zee.oh, im so excited for the year! haha.pls: everything changes. nothing will always be the same.. except God.
