your treasures are in heaven.

alot of things in me.

time flies.

4 weeks have passed with me having to serve in the hospitality team (HT) in church.

i cant say it was great. coz i don have alot to do. in fact, it was rather slack.

it didnt feel like i served.

sometimes i wonder if im born to labour all my life. haha. u know in chinese it is called lao lu ming.

as you are reading this, maybe you are thinking.. zee leh! so slack, how can it be?

but i realise that.. all these times that i have been working in Omron.. i was always craving for more work. and more work. i didnt like the idea of being free.

so grace asked me.. "aye, you lao lu ming is it?"

that was how it occurred to me. maybe in areas that im passionate about... ha.

so i realised i like responsibilities. and the more responsibilities i have, the better i perform. weird. but true.

so back to my hospitality team duty.. i didnt feel like i did much.. as compared to the other leaders.. but i thank God..

that i was given this chance to serve, albeit in a small way.

that i was give the opporunity to know more people. and know them better.

that i learnt that when you serve, you don't choose where to serve. Where God calls me, i go. period.

sometimes.. i get blinded by wanting to perform.. to gain the favour of human.

then God will remind me.. what for?

your treasures are stored in heaven.

i rmb one occasion.. my IA fren, kim, was very very stressed up at work. so as she was sharing her burden with me, she started tearing..

after work, soon leng msged me and asked me how she was.. so i explained and stuff, and said she will be fine.. yadah yadah..

and soon leng's one message.. brought me all the way down.

"she will be fine i think.. she's quite bright..."

immediately i thought.. what about me?

i was sad. so i asked God.. to take that feeling away from me..

then He reminded me..

why do you want the recognition from other people? isnt it enough that i know?

i felt so much better at once. thank God.

and there was another time.. when serving in the HT.. one pastor came past me and my team.. and asked one of my gals for her name.. and then he said.. "XXX, good. very good.."

and sigh, i got that feeling again. what about me? im the leader somemore.. : (

then i rmb what God said.

please God. and no one else.

im learning. more and more about myself.

God bless me.. to be a blessing to all around me. : )

pls: reading xiaxue's blog makes me wanna go on a cruise!!!!!!!!!


Thursday, March 23, 2006.12:17 AM