hmm

busy to the core.

i hope you understand.

it's strange.

after you told me that night that.. you are ok.. and what was the thing that really hit you.. that night..

that night, i really smiled from the bottom of my heart.
that night, i felt like it was the same.. it was like before.
that night, i walked home.. beaming..

how long has it been? almost a month.
the time of not seeing you.. it scares me.
scares me, what if.. there's no more you?
i cannot imagine. and i dont want to imagine. it only makes my heart cringe.

where are we? where are we heading? my heart is crying.
how many times have i dreamt of you.. happy dreams.. dreams where we were back to the same old us.. i am always so happy in my dreams..
but only to find that happiness short lived when i wake up.
reality then sinks in. and i will sigh. knowing that nothing has changed.

if you could see my heart.. if only you could..
despite where we are now, i still can say this.
that no one understands me the way you do.. and no one ever will.
i really miss you.

when will things resume?
if resume is not the word.. when will things start moving again?

and just so you know..
i am still very sorry.

i miss you..
terribly.



Monday, March 19, 2007.2:56 AM